When I’m All Alone …

My greatest fear is someone finding out about my secret.
Not even my best friend knows. I think my best friend’s sister figured out part of it, but what she can see is only half of it. She cannot see the motive, the compulsive drive behind it all, that which I suffer from every day of my life.

I have nightmares about people finding out what I do. If someone looks at my face too long I feel like they will figure it out so I turn away.

I feel so ashamed and so helpless.

I am so alone.